So.. our life changes. This is a traveling job. By traveling I mean, good money. Great benefits, but he's gone 6-12 weeks at a time and then home for 2. Then leaves again.. and so on and so forth.
I have never been alone. I'm left to deal with this. It's bittersweet. I'm terribly happy for him.. so excited. Couldn't be more happy for him to have this opportunity. But I'm left behind, with our three kids.. to raise pretty much by myself. All of their firsts, strictly for my viewing..
And my heart is breaking. I don't want to keep him from this opportunity, though. I would regret it my whole life and wonder What If? .. I'd feel guilty, like I kept him from something he wanted. His sister told me, "He always told me when we were kids that he wanted to see the world. And that he would.. He always said he would." Well, nows his chance.