As a parent, you often find yourself in a whirlwind of chaos. I don't necessarily mean bad chaos, but having to re-learn the mumbo jumbo of better managing your time, if you know what I'm saying. I have officially done the unthinkable.. honestly something I never pictured myself to even attempt, rather yet be able to accomplish -- but I'm going to roll with the punches and hope like crazy that with all of my hard work, I succeed! I am going to manage to multitask. I've enrolled back in college, will (most likely, and hopefully) be released to go back to work as of Friday, am a mother to 3 children, am a wife to one somewhat needy husband, and I run a photography business.
This seems unthinkable. I am enrolled full-time in college, but haven't been since 2007 when I dropped out right after High School. Since then, I met Sean & married him and we had 3 beautiful kids.. and my life has been a rollercoaster of all three things -- the good, the bad, and the ugly. I'm willing to do this! This is not only what I want, but this is what I need. And while doing so, I hope to set some personal goals.. weight loss, healthier me, growing out my nails and not just picking, clipping or biting them off because I get stressed out (which is what I did during college orientation for re-admits the other day), lol. And so on and so forth. I want to take more pictures, enjoy my kids more, do things as a family. I want to live life. I feel like I've been sitting on the sidelines for so long.. waiting on life to live for me! And it's time for me to do something for ME and my kids will all benefit from it in the long run. I want to know that if, come hell or high water, I needed to stand on my own two feet -- I could do it without a problem and not have to flip out over a huge life changing experience or something.
Does this make me crazy? Maybe. Am I going to feel overwhelmed as can be? Probably. But is it worth it? Is it what I want? YESSSS. And will I do it? You betcha!